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The Way He Looks at You Series
Cal Kestis Week Bonus Content: In Another Life
Chapter III: I Don't Know Anymore
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Chapter Summary
Tumblr celebrated Cal Kestis Week, I used the dialogue prompts for each chapter.
This chapter uses: "I don't know anymore."
This mini series is what life could have looked like if Reader (lovingly nicknamed "Light" by Cal) had never lost her memory in the final battle of 'The Way He Looks at You'.
Rating: 18+
Words: 1.0K
Trigger Warnings: None
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Light’s eyes watch the trail of Cal’s expert fingers as he undresses before her. His pale skin revealing itself beneath the harsh black fabric. Each muscle flexing as he pulls the offending shirt from his body.
He gestures for her to do the same, earning a huff. “It’s not like I have that much to remove, Cal, and I’d much rather watch you undress.”
Cal stands in only his trousers. “Obey me, Light.”
She smirks. “Or what? You’ll provide me with another pitiful attempt at punishment?”
His fingers curl in the air and Light feels a distinct pressure at the sides of her neck. Her eyes widening in realization at the power he possesses.
He drops the hand. “I am fully capable of severe punishment. But I love you and I’d much rather spend our time together sinking myself into your tight cunt and listening to the sounds you make.”
She keeps her eyes glued to Cal’s, hands raising to release the bow at the back of her neck. The dress flutters down, catching at the waist, fully exposing her breasts to him. Cal almost smiles, raising his chin in approval. His hands resume removing his trousers.
Light licks her lips as he pushes them past his hips, his cock springing free, bobbing as he steps out of the fabric. She wastes no time shoving the elastic waist of the dress over her own hips and kicking it off the bed.
Cal is quick to crawl onto the bed, spreading her legs and lining himself up with her entrance. She props up on her forearms to watch as his tip pushes against her. His eyes flick to hers before pushing forward.
Light tenses. “Cal, stop.”
He does, giving her a curious look. “Something the matter?”
She flops back onto the mattress, covering her face in her hands. “I don’t know anymore. I don’t think I’m ready. What if I end up pregnant again?”
Cal moves to sit beside her, pulling her into his arms. “Would that be such a bad thing? Starting a family with me?”
Her face stays hidden. “It might be. I mean, we just lost one. I’m hurting, and even worse, I’m worried it might be a blessing in disguise.”
“What do you mean?”
“Fifth knew about the baby. I’m sure he intended to use that information against us. And you won’t even talk to me about him!”
Cal winces as she yells the last part. “I am truly sorry for ignoring your fears. I do care about what frightens you, and I want to do everything in my power to eliminate those fears. But I am afraid too, afraid of what may happen to you if I were to kill Fifth.”
Light reveals her face from her hands, showing the streaks of tears beneath. “I understand. But I’m not sure I can live like this. I don’t want to raise children here. At least this way, if there are no children, I don’t have to be so afraid.”
Cal nods, his stare a thousand light years away.
She crawls to block his gaze. “Cal?”
“Yes?”
“What if we stay together and never have children?”
He looks down, sorrow in his eyes. “Had things been different, I could have easily agreed to that. But the pain I feel in losing our child makes it impossible to not want that future with you.”
Her eyebrows furrow as she gazes at his lips. “I understand, but I can’t do that here.”
“There’s nothing I can do to convince you to stay here and start a family with me? Besides kill Fifth, of course?”
Light shakes her head and Cal lays back, pulling her with him. They lie, wrapped in one another’s arms for a long time. No words being exchanged, only thinking and breathing the other in.
All Cal wants is to take her from this life, start over, somewhere simple and easy. Or to vanquish the entirety of the Empire and rule over the galaxy with her by his side. It’s all wishful thinking, and he’s no longer the man he once was. A man who was unafraid of taking on the Empire single-handed. But he’s lost so much in this war, and he won’t risk losing her.
They can’t simply leave. Well, he can’t. But perhaps she could…
His low voice breaks the silence. “I may have an idea, but it’s far from the ideal life.”
Light tilts her head back to hear him. “What are you thinking?”
He sighs. “I do not like this plan, for the record. I’d much rather you stay and we start our family and face the challenges together.”
“You’d rather I stay? Cal, what are you saying? Are you saying I should leave?”
His lips press together. “That’s exactly what I’m saying.”
She rotates to look fully into his face. “Cal, I don’t want to be apart, not after the last time we were separated.”
He lets out a harsh laugh. “It won’t be anything like that. This time, I’ll know exactly where you are and you won’t have been stolen from me.”
“So you’ll just give me somewhere to live and message me when you can?”
His eyes crinkle. “Yes, and visit when I can. I travel enough for work. I’m sure I won’t be missed if I spend an extra day away with you.”
“That sounds risky.”
“It would be, but less risky than having children here or killing Fifth.”
She nods, mulling over his proposition. “I suppose so. Where would I live?”
“Where would you like to live?”
“I suppose anywhere with a Rebellion presence is unfavorable?”
He huffs. “You would be correct.”
“I don’t know. It sounds lonely.”
What if we found you a home near Kaahlii? Then you wouldn’t be alone when I’m not there?”
Her eyes light up, remembering the enjoyment she had on Aloxor before she was taken from Cal. “Do you think it’s safe? What if Theo shows up again?”
Cal’s jaw sets. “If he’s alive, I’m sure he’ll believe I’m keeping you under lock and key after what happened last time. You should be safe there.”
Light only nods in agreement, not pushing further on the issue with Theo. The room falls silent again, an understanding of another large change in their lives. Cal holds her tight until they both fall asleep.
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